Life Without The Internet

So, COX is in the process of burying fiber lines in my neighborhood so they can bring us service. I live in the country so we’ve never had any kind of cable or fiber service. Only satellite TV and DSL from AT&T for phone and internet service. It’s something that everyone in the neighborhood has been looking forward to for a long time so we are excited about it, but COX has hired the most incompetent set of contractors to bury the fiber line. Every day they are cutting someone’s AT&T line. I have been without home phone or internet service since Friday so I decided to stay late at work to update you guys.

My uterus decided to give me a great big slap in the face today.

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Seriously………. *sigh*

I have my moments when I’m really down about it, and I have my moments when I’m just looking forward to my next steps.

Let me be real with you folks for a moment here.

This is costing me a minimum of $2,500 a month, I’m trying to do this off of a single income, and I’ve still got my mortgage, truck, and everything else. I knew it was going to cost a lot. I saved up enough money for what I had hoped would be at least 4 tries, but all of the medical testing that was done before hand wasn’t something I had factored in and I had underestimated the monthly costs by about $400.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that my savings for this are running low, but I figured out a way to give this one more try. If it does not work I will have to stop for about 6 or 7 months to save up more money for another 3-4 tries starting around July of 2015.

I’m praying really hard for the 3rd time to be the charm! I’m trying to avoid thinking about how heartbroken I’ll be if I have to wait until next summer to start trying again.

I’m glad that my doctor’s office will see me earlier than usual for my baseline ultrasound since they will be closed on my CD 3 for Thanksgiving. I have an appointment at 9AM tomorrow.

When I spoke with the nurse over the phone she mentioned that we would be doing the same protocol as last month. Am I crazy for thinking that doing the same thing would likely end up with the same result??? I feel like I should maybe ask tomorrow while I’m there why they aren’t being more aggressive this round. I just want the best shot I can get, because if things don’t work out this round I’ll have to put everything on hold… and I really don’t want to do that. I know that financing is an option, but I also decided before I even started that I didn’t want to go into debt to do this.

So far, this is what’s been done, and what they plan to do for this cycle.

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Coming Soon! The results of tomorrows ultrasound and the game plan for IUI #3.

The Fertility Blessing

You know my deep desire for a child. A little one to love and to hold, to care for, to cherish. Grant that my body may conceive and give birth to a beautiful, healthy baby in Your holy image.

Guide me in all my choices so that this conception, my pregnancy and my baby’s birth are in line with Your will.

Heavenly Father and Holy Mother, hear this prayer of my heart, mind and spirit.

Amen

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Halfway To An Answer

Ok… I know this is a couple days past the real halfway point, but I think it’s close enough. Here’s a little poem that I think suits me well right now.

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I’m not up, I’m not down. I’m somewhere in the middle. I don’t have any gut feelings this cycle… I’m still keeping my hopes up though!

I decided to test out my trigger shot this round… I’m taking a pregnancy test every day. I went to the dollar tree and bought 9 pregnancy tests for $1.00 each. I’ll get a few of the more expensive First Response tests for the last few days. It took until this morning, 9 days post IUI, for the test to go back to negative. A lot of people get early positive results on 10 days post IUI, so I’m hoping to see something good within the next few days!

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I’m glad I decided to test out the trigger though. Like I’ve said before, I feel better when I’m DOING SOMETHING! It doesn’t really matter to me if it makes a difference for the end result… just as long as it’s keeping me busy regarding baby making.

Symptom spotting… I’ve only had a few of the same progesterone symptoms as last time. The crazy sense of smell, the pressure in my uterus area… This time I can add zits. Lots and lots of zits. It’s miserable. I can also add the fact that something has completely shut down the receptors in my brain that say, “Hey! You’re full now. You can stop eating.” I can seriously pile a mountain of food on my plate, finish it off, and still go for more. I’m already overweight, I just hope I don’t end up as big as a house!

Next weekend I know I’ll end up busy. I have a broken washing machine so I know I will take my laundry to my parent’s house to do it there. Hopefully I can get a repair man to come and look at it soon. My mom, sister-in-law, and I are also going to have a girls day on Sunday and go to the movies to watch The Hunger Games: Mockingjay – Part 1. Hopefully next week sometime I will have an answer to share with all of you!

Coming Soon! The Results of My Pregnancy Test For IUI #2.

The Fertility Blessing

You know my deep desire for a child. A little one to love and to hold, to care for, to cherish. Grant that my body may conceive and give birth to a beautiful, healthy baby in Your holy image.

Guide me in all my choices so that this conception, my pregnancy and my baby’s birth are in line with Your will.

Heavenly Father and Holy Mother, hear this prayer of my heart, mind and spirit.

Amen

The Two Week Wait… Take Two!

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Well… this happened a lot faster than I expected! I went for my CD 10 ultrasound on Friday morning just to check things out, and ended up spotting a big ole 21 mm follicle on my right ovary. I had another one on my left ovary that was only 14 mm, but they said that they didn’t think it would grow enough to catch up and be fertilized. I’ve only got one shot… but all it takes is one!

After finding that big follicle the nurse met with the doctor and called me around noon on Friday to tell me to take my HCG trigger shot right away, and that I would be coming in this morning (Saturday, November 8th) at 9:00 AM. This was CD 11. Last month I didn’t do the insemination until CD 16.

I’m really glad I got to do my insemination on a Saturday this time. Last month I had to do it on a Monday, then go straight home and pack all my bags just to leave for a business trip to San Antonio, TX the next day. This time I get to relax, and really enjoy the fact that I’m trying to make a baby. I love thinking about it. It makes me so happy!

This time I asked what I could do if the HCG shot hurt as much as last time. The nurse told me to use Benadryl cream and to take Benadryl orally. The Benadryl didn’t even touch it! 😦 It’s just as painful as last time. It sucks!

Aside from the painful shot, I still feel really good about this month. This time I wore my second place owl socks and had the medal of St. Gerard Majella again. There were no crazy coincidences this time around… Just relaxed hopefulness. If this one works, I’ll have an estimated due date of August 1st!

Coming Soon! A mid two week wait check in.

The Fertility Blessing

You know my deep desire for a child. A little one to love and to hold, to care for, to cherish. Grant that my body may conceive and give birth to a beautiful, healthy baby in Your holy image.

Guide me in all my choices so that this conception, my pregnancy and my baby’s birth are in line with Your will.

Heavenly Father and Holy Mother, hear this prayer of my heart, mind and spirit.

Amen

It’s A Fresh Start!

First things first!

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Sorry. I just had to throw that out there. Voting is so important for me because I really want to do everything I can to try to improve the world that my future children will be living in. I hope all my American friends voted today too!

I’ve been slacking! I totally meant to update on Sunday… I promise I’m not sulking because of the negative pregnancy test! In fact, I’ve been feeling pretty good about things lately. To be completely honest, I was just procrastinating writing a new post because I was too busy reading Gone With The Wind. I had been working on finishing that book for almost two months and I finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel and decided to just go for it. Besides the fact that the book is really long, I have no idea why it took me so long to finish it. I guess I had my mind on too many other things!

So, I feel really good about this cycle. I had my baseline ultrasound on Friday and got my game plan. I’ve never really been good at the whole “lets wait and see” thing, which is what my ENTIRE last cycle was about. Last cycle they gave me 25 mg of Femara on CD(cycle day) 3 and then I had to wait EIGHT whole days just to find out that it didn’t work like they thought it would. This time they gave me the 25 mg of Femara on CD 3 like last time, but I got to start my injectable FSH on CD 5 through 8 with an ultrasound on CD 10. I know that’s a little confusing to follow, so here’s a chart that might make it a little more clear.

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The ultrasound on CD 10 which is Friday will tell me if I have any mature eggs that are ready to be triggered for an IUI. I hope I have a couple big fat juicy eggs that are ready to go!

I feel so optimistic about this cycle… In fact EVERYTHING feels so different this time around. Almost every day of my first cycle last month I was either nervous or scared because I didn’t know what to expect. This time I’m not so worried, and it helps so much that I’m not having to do the whole “wait and see” thing again.

I feel happy.

I feel confident.

I feel hopeful.

I feel optimistic!

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Coming Soon! Updates after my next ultrasound.

The Fertility Blessing

You know my deep desire for a child. A little one to love and to hold, to care for, to cherish. Grant that my body may conceive and give birth to a beautiful, healthy baby in Your holy image.

Guide me in all my choices so that this conception, my pregnancy and my baby’s birth are in line with Your will.

Heavenly Father and Holy Mother, hear this prayer of my heart, mind and spirit.

Amen