Disappointment Comes In a 27 Millimeter Package

Yes, I’m changing things up on y’all. I know I promised a different subject for this week’s post, but in light of a new bump in the road on my journey to becoming mommy I decided to tell you guys about that instead. The original topic that I had promised for this week will be posted next week.

Many people know that I was anxiously waiting for “Aunt Flo” to show up last weekend so I could begin my first cycle for Intrauterine Insemination. Exactly as I had predicted, AF began on Saturday morning. I was so excited to contact the doctor’s office and I was silently cursing the fact that Monday was a holiday and that I would have to wait until Tuesday to go for my first appointment.

After calling the doctor’s office first thing Tuesday morning, I was scheduled for an appointment at 1:00 that afternoon for a baseline ultrasound to take some measurements of my uterus and ovaries to make sure that everything was good to go for this month.

On my way to the appointment I felt a pinching, stabbing pain right about the place where my left ovary would be. It’s funny how you realize just where all your parts are inside after a procedure like an HSG… Anyway, I had a feeling something wasn’t going to go right, but I still kept my hopes up.

During the ultrasound the tech measured the lining of the uterus and the right ovary, but when she switched over to the left ovary it looked a little different on the monitor. It looked like a big empty black dot. She took some measurements and asked me to join the nurse across the hall after I had gotten dressed.

I hadn’t even sat down in the nurse’s office yet when she blurted out, “Well I guess she already told you that you have a 27 millimeter cyst on your left ovary.”

Me: “Ummm… No.”

Nurse: “Oh… Well you have a 27 millimeter cyst on your left ovary.”

Me: “OK?”

Nurse: “Well, we cancel the cycle for anything over a 15 millimeter cyst. You can either wait for another month to see if it goes away on its own, or you can go on birth control for a month to actively try to shrink it.”

Me: “I’m guessing that going on birth control is my best bet?”

Nurse: *Blank stare*

Me: “Well, birth control it is.”

Nurse: *Hands me a prescription for Desogen (aka reclipsen).* “I’ll see you in another month.”

So there you have it. All plans for an insemination this month have been canceled. Nothing in particular causes these cysts… They just happen sometimes. I allowed myself to feel disappointment, but not anger or frustration. Hardly anyone has a flawless conception and I figured I wouldn’t be an exception to that rule. Lots of people have a tougher time than I have had so far, so I will just consider this a minor bump in the road.

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The birth control has sucked. The first couple nights it made me vomit in the middle of the night. Last night the nausea was terrible, but I haven’t thrown up since the first couple nights. I also have enormous zits because of it. Ouch… But, I’m willing to do it if it will shrink the darn cyst on my ovary! As of right now I have one week of birth control down and two more weeks to go!

No early June baby for me… Now I’m praying for an early July baby!

Coming Soon! Why I Chose California Cryobank.

The Fertility Blessing

You know my deep desire for a child. A little one to love and to hold, to care for, to cherish. Grant that my body may conceive and give birth to a beautiful, healthy baby in Your holy image.

Guide me in all my choices so that this conception, my pregnancy and my baby’s birth are in line with Your will.

Heavenly Father and Holy Mother, hear this prayer of my heart, mind and spirit.

Amen

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