Hi everyone! I know it’s been about 3 weeks since my last post. I’m sorry I’ve been MIA for a while. I was really disappointed about having the cyst on my ovary and having to cancel the cycle. I caught myself obsessing over it for quite a few days… there was constant googling trying to find reasons, or things I could do to avoid or get rid of cysts… There really isn’t anything I could do besides what was already being done. Cysts just happen sometimes. It was causing me to get really stressed. I didn’t want to do that to myself, so I decided to just give it all a rest. The only reminder was the pill I took daily to hopefully shrink the cyst.
Those pills were miserable. Constant nausea, headaches, moodiness, food cravings… and there is this little nagging voice in the back of my mind that keeps saying, “If you think this is bad, just wait until you get pregnant!” I tried to shut that little bitch up with chocolate but it didn’t work… I’m just thankful that I’ve taken the whole pack. Now I’m just waiting for Aunt Flo again so I can schedule my next appointment.
Today is the first day that I really started thinking about it again. I have been pinching every penny I’ve got lately, because I don’t want to take any chances on not being able to fund as many cycles as I want to. That has resulted in a lot of home time with Netflix or a good book, but today I finally got out of the house and went to the Tinsel & Treasures show that is organized every year by the Junior League of Lafayette. It was my first time going so I really enjoyed myself and I found a few treasures to buy. The first thing I want to share about is a necklace and earring set made with moonstone. I want to send a little shout out to my friend who told me about moonstone. It is believed that moonstone is really great for fertility. Even if it doesn’t help, it’s a pretty little stone that reflects pretty colors.
While I was shopping I also came up with an idea to tease my future kids when they get old enough to realize how they were made…
Sooo… I bought these socks… and I plan to wear them during my insemination, then put them away… only to pull them out later to tease my kids by saying, “These are the socks I was wearing when I made you!” Now the only question that remains is owls, cats, or garden gnomes???
Moving on to California Cryobank… (cryobank.com) I’ve had a hard time finding the motivation to write about this because I’m bored with it, but it’s information that I want to get out there for anyone who’s curious about what information I have about my donor.
I chose an anonymous donor. I don’t want to know who the donor is and I don’t want to ever be known to the donor, so for that reason, I will never post my donor number online and the only people who will know the donor number is my immediate family. I also declined any donor who would be willing to be a known donor after their offspring turns 18.
There is an option to search donors for free, but you don’t get nearly as much information as you would get with a paid subscription. The closest you could get to finding out what the donor looked like is where the site lists celebrity look alikes of the donor. I searched as a free member for months, and even made a list of favorites from the information that I could see. When I got closer to my first appointment I got a paid subscription and my ENTIRE LIST of favorites changed!
Here’s a list of the subscription levels and their prices.
When it was time to pay for a subscription, I decided to go with the Level II to create a final list of favorites and from there I picked the donor I want to use. I decided to buy the “Facial Features Reports” and the Donor Conversations a la carte for the top guy.
In the Donor profile you get to see all of the basic information about the donor such as height, weight, eye color, hair color, level of education, occupational background, hobbies, and other personality traits. I’ll say it right up front. I didn’t really care about the personality traits. I believe that a person is a product of their upbringing. That won’t stop me from blaming the donor when my child misbehaves though. LOL
There is also a personal health history. I’m glad to know the allergies, vision, and hearing of my donor. I also get to know what surgeries he’s had and why. His dental health and if he’s ever needed braces.
As an added bonus, I get all of this information about the donor’s mother, father, brother, 2 sisters, 3 aunts, 2 uncles, 6 cousins and all 4 grandparents. I know everything they were diagnosed with, and their age when they were diagnosed.
Writing all this down makes me feel like a creeper! I didn’t realize how much personal information I have on people I’ve never met!
I have three baby/adolescent pictures of the donor. He’s handsome!
I also have personal essays written by the donor where the donor writes out answers to questions like, “Describe your personality. Give examples of how you display those traits.” and, “Which family member are you closest to and why?”
As I mentioned above, I also bought the facial features report which analyzes every part of the face… I’ve got every little detail about his chin, forehead, face shape, cheek bones, eyebrows, eyes, nose, lips, ears, chin, and teeth. In addition I also bought the donor conversation which is an audio recording of the donor answering questions in a one on one interview with a staff member of the cryobank. I couldn’t pass that one up. I didn’t want to take the chance of having a boy, who will one day grow into a man, who squeaks like a mouse when he speaks… I had to make sure my donor had a manly voice! LOL
I guess that’s all… For now, all I can do is sit and wait… It’s getting a little boring.
Coming Soon! Taking Requests… I’m not sure what I want to write about next, so if there is something you want to know about please let me know! If I get a lot of short questions which only require a short answer I can possibly do a Q&A session.
The Fertility Blessing
You know my deep desire for a child. A little one to love and to hold, to care for, to cherish. Grant that my body may conceive and give birth to a beautiful, healthy baby in Your holy image.
Guide me in all my choices so that this conception, my pregnancy and my baby’s birth are in line with Your will.
Heavenly Father and Holy Mother, hear this prayer of my heart, mind and spirit.